heeeellllo! haha well, I haven't been really active lately. School=HORROR, plus I've had a lot of drama of my own. I've had guy troubles and friend troubles and school troubles and life troubles lol I probably should be studying for my final instead of updating you guys, but here I go. I haven't written a lot at all, and if I have writen, it's been in my diary, because I just haven't been inspired or creative at all lately. I've been so tired with school and everything. My mom has been upset with me because I'm so out of sorts when I don't dance.. I've been moody (which also has to do with the fact that I'm overtired) and I haven't been doing much around the house (haha, which also has to do with my tiredness.) My dad finally decided to grace us with his presence for father's day, I didn't actually go with him. I had too much to do, and I didn't need any more drama. I've seen him 3 times since last father's day.... I didn't need to deal with telling him that I'm not going to be coming up anymore.. I've actually sorta changed my mind on that.. I'll go for the summer, but during the school year, I have a job on saturday... I've been so emotionally stressed, it's stupid... I am a very naieve, innocent, unexpirienced person. I've dealt with a few minor problems, but haven't dealt with anything that major. Weeeelll, I have 2 friends who are depressed and it majorly upsets me. I love them so much, and it hurts so much to see them loathe themselves. I don't know what I can do anymore. I'll always be there, but I always feel like I can't be there enough. I don't know how they can feel so horribly about themselves... actually, I do, but I don't think to the extent that my friends do.. It's just so horrible. I love them to death and would be such a mess if they actually like killed themselves or hurt themselves really badly.. I'd end up blaming myself. and I wouldn't gett over it, I'd be a disaster. I just can't help thinking about that kinda stuff. If you guys do read this, I LOVE YOU!! aaaand, anyone else who is depressed/thinking of suicide, you deserve to live, no matter what you've done, or what you think of yourself. And if you decide to permanetely end a temporary problem, even if you don't see it, there will be people effected. Even if you don't see it, people love you and would miss you and would be crying if you took your life away. Don't make a mistake that can't be fixed. I love you.

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e) ask something I've always wanted to know about you,
f) tell you my favorite pic of yours,
g) in return, you must post this in your journal